As a SAHM, I have been blessed with the privilege to be with my child almost 24/7. (I have a part time job teaching.) But with that blessing, I think I take it for granted sometimes.
Yes I get to watch my son grow each and every day. I get to teach him and watch him play and explore. I get to love on him to no end and give him all the kisses I want until he reaches an age where he thinks it’s gross. But I think that, on occasion, I forget.
I noticed the other day that I say, “Hold on.” or “One second.” a lot. Like, a lot a lot. Why? Am I so busy that I can’t be bothered. Why is what I’m doing at that moment in time more important than the line of trains my son has made and wants to show me? Let’s be honest, I’m not a brain surgeon so it’s probably not more important.
Don’t get me wrong, I know that I can’t go with him every single time he wants me to. It’s usually the same thing about 5 times in a row. He needs to learn patience and to play by himself. The latter, he is very good at. But the former, not so much. But still, I think I say it too much. I know he’s only 2 but it’s not something I want him to remember about me or a habit I want to get into. I don’t want him to grow up thinking that whatever mommy is doing is more important than him.
So I’m making a conscious effort to stay “Hold on.” less. You may have noticed that I’ve been absent more than usual. (Maybe not.) But that’s part of my effort to show my son that he is more important to me. I don’t typically schedule my posts, I write on a day to day basis, this can take up a good chunk of my morning/afternoon
. Not that I don’t enjoy it. I LOVE blogging. However, I’m starting realize the fact that if one or two days out of the week I don’t end up posting because I spent more time looking at choo-choos, that’s ok. Honestly, it’s a day very well spent.